Jumat, 18 Maret 2022

august

august was the month when i first saw you
when we were both young and reckless
exchanging numbers, hoping that one of us would make the first move
wasn't the best year of my life, i was betrayed for no reason
but at least you were there, glad that at some point we met

never knew how much we could fall 
into the deepest of someone's eyes
until i breathed your promises, let it filled my blood
like summer air we craved, it was warm and odd 
those who knew warned us 'bout this feeling
but, hey, once again we were just kids
nothing scared us, not even the biggest risks

august was the month when we celebrated your 18 birthday
like i knew before, we stood there under the sun
our eyes hurt, blinded by the light
with you whispered on my ears, you were holding my hands
we weren't afraid by the future, but separation
you told me everything will be okay

months after our story folded, we became distanced
i wonder when was the last time you stop replying
i never put anything behind, just to let you apart
starting to wonder when did it went wrong
something was probably off from the star, mixed signal, red flags, sure i was oblivious
with lies and broken promises, loose it like i never possessed it

august was the month that you decided to remain silent
i never knew where you went, where you headed,
i thought we both lost, in gazillion starts right upon our heads
i'd never been this scared, maybe i shouldn't
you told me to get over it, that we both should move on
like how could you, how could you
and then you told me, you were never been in the first place
you were never love me, for once

august was the month when i first saw you
when we were both young and reckless
exchanging numbers, hoping that one of us would make the first move
wasn't the best year of my life, i was betrayed for no reason
but at least you were there, glad that at some point we met




Minggu, 23 Januari 2022

Glue

Months passed and you are still as sweet as it started
But somehow i still feel like i need to be careful
Dont wanna hear the sound of my heart breaking no more
Yet risking it all to be with you all the time 
I know at some point i need to let it go and trust the process
Keeping everything real and grounded, because what has happened in the past
You said it will be different,
And im kinda hoping it so

Im thinking bout the time we spent
How our toes touched the grass and our lungs breath the sparkly air
Wind in my face and your arms around me
You tried to comfort me and i wanted to believe
But my insecurities forbid me
Maybe we should take some distances and take a break
Maybe I should
But that means i have to unwrap everything that you folded
The next thing i know that I am afraid that the glue will dry out 
And the presents will no longer be a surprise