21

I was 20 when i first met you,

February 6th, if i am not mistaken the date I marked

Heart was openned, lips were locked

I wanted to tell you every second, every minute

How i was so deeply in love with you

No lesson learned, somehow kind of breaking the rule

Missing the red flags, tip-toeing the advices, adrenaline rushes

I was never the trusting type, you know how well it is

But with you, no need to questions

I give you everything without being asked

love seems possible to reach

It was not something so hard to solve

Easy to catch yet hard to let go-o-o

Tell me how things turned out differently as i turned 21?

You changed your mind, heart seems to burn out, two heads dont stand in same side, and then everything seems so lifeless

Wasn't 21 your favorite number

I remember you've said it before

When i told you my birthday

And you show me your jersey number was also 21

We were laughing at the facts that this number was ours

We may have danced a little bit

Visiting friends, trading clothes

You told me bout your past, and i laughed at your jokes

You charmed me with your smile, it fed my ego

We were changing promises, like we took those polaroids

Heavy and colorless but memorable more than any ever

Too many questions in one song 

But I know one day you will have the guts to answer it

Because the day you walked out the door didnt make you any wiser than 21

We buit a house that soon you will left behind

We made a vow than soon you will break to pieces

The moment that you stayed up longer 

The moment that i should have known

You were planning on your departure

And left me in despair

Oh maybe you did it on purpose

To pay back for what i did

Spent my 21 loving you so carelessly 

February Man

Hey February man, i saw you last night

Smiley face, big wide eyes

Looked all different than the way you used to be

Did you lose some weight? Did you cut your hair?

I hate to tell you that, small talk like that, it made me uncomfortable in some kind of way

I said hello, you said hi, like everything was alright

It was august, raining hard, i was looking at my phone waiting for your name to appear

I wasn't sure what did i do wrong, maybe it was too fast, maybe i asked too much, maybe i said something too brave, oh how i put all the blame in me

But the clock keep ticking, your name was never there and once again im standing here

Alone, with no hope, all the guilt, all the feelings that shouldn't be here because with you i was so sure 

Hey february man, months passed, i still remember that day

We were so in love, why did you leave so sudden

You left no traces, you deleted those messages

You erased me from your life, like i was no one

But i still kept your photographs, like i kept my promises

You still my february man, with no doubt 

I heard that you found someone new,you told me that she's a doctor

Im happier than ever, but how about our unresolved business,

I bet that you do consider that it was all finished, but i dont think the same way

The night you cut me off, it was one sided

I was never wanted it all to end..

Hey february man, i dont think you ever hear this

But was it stupid to fall in love with someone who fires hate?

Was it a waste to keep giving when all you do was keep rejecting?

Was it stable if only one of us didn't tremble?

Was it healthy if we both stay in a relationship which one of us dont feel the same way?

Please tell me, because you are the one who seems to already figure this out

Because i dont, i dont..

It was a new august, and your name stop entering my mind

You with her, good news with bad timing

I saw you walk passed me, with no notice that this could be this hard

We both grow old and forget all the things that happened

I sparked a smile you cried a tear,

But as the time goes by, you are not more than a boy whose name i dont see clear..