February Man

Hey February man, i saw you last night

Smiley face, big wide eyes

Looked all different than the way you used to be

Did you lose some weight? Did you cut your hair?

I hate to tell you that, small talk like that, it made me uncomfortable in some kind of way

I said hello, you said hi, like everything was alright

It was august, raining hard, i was looking at my phone waiting for your name to appear

I wasn't sure what did i do wrong, maybe it was too fast, maybe i asked too much, maybe i said something too brave, oh how i put all the blame in me

But the clock keep ticking, your name was never there and once again im standing here

Alone, with no hope, all the guilt, all the feelings that shouldn't be here because with you i was so sure 

Hey february man, months passed, i still remember that day

We were so in love, why did you leave so sudden

You left no traces, you deleted those messages

You erased me from your life, like i was no one

But i still kept your photographs, like i kept my promises

You still my february man, with no doubt 

I heard that you found someone new,you told me that she's a doctor

Im happier than ever, but how about our unresolved business,

I bet that you do consider that it was all finished, but i dont think the same way

The night you cut me off, it was one sided

I was never wanted it all to end..

Hey february man, i dont think you ever hear this

But was it stupid to fall in love with someone who fires hate?

Was it a waste to keep giving when all you do was keep rejecting?

Was it stable if only one of us didn't tremble?

Was it healthy if we both stay in a relationship which one of us dont feel the same way?

Please tell me, because you are the one who seems to already figure this out

Because i dont, i dont..

It was a new august, and your name stop entering my mind

You with her, good news with bad timing

I saw you walk passed me, with no notice that this could be this hard

We both grow old and forget all the things that happened

I sparked a smile you cried a tear,

But as the time goes by, you are not more than a boy whose name i dont see clear..