Powerful Female Characters I Fall in Love With

HELLO WOMEN! welcome back with me, Cindy. not to be exaggerating but really, gue bosen banget melow-mellow ala sanguinis gini. gue mau nulis artikel yang sepertinya gak terlalu penting buat netizen, tapi penting buat gue. kayaknya semua ini pengaruh keseringan nonton film mereka dan gue langsung mikir "hmmmm... gue pengen dong jadi kayak Mbak ini!" yep, that's true. representation itu penting apalagi buat adolescent. dengan melihat adanya tokoh perempuan yang powerful di TV, seorang anak perempuan muda gak akan ngerasain lagi tuh punya low self esteem, kayak yang biasa gue rasain. tap ini tuh dulu, self esteem gue udah muncul dikit-dikit. alhamdulillah, karena gue mulai mencari-cari titik demi titik kelebihan gue, dan mengumpulkannya walaupun belum menjadi bukit. okedeh, ini dia list cewk-cewek powerful yang gue sangat adore! cekidot!

 1. Gracie Hart a.k.a Gracie Lou Freebush seorang agen FBI, yang kerennya gak perlu dipertanyakan lagi. awalanya emang sih sikapnya sembrono, gaya berpakaiannya acak-acakan, pembawaanya kasar dan suka banget sarcasm. Gracie awalnya emang punya negative view sama beauty pageant tapi toh, dia mau ngubah cara pandangnya setelah bergaul sama beberapa kontestan dan terjun langsung dalam kontes itu. jujur, gue aspired bgt pengen kayak dia.cantik, pinter, bisa bela diri. GUESS WHAT, dia gak butuh cowok buat ngelindungin dia.

 2. Eugenia 'Skeeter' Phelan oke-oke, hands down. salah satu tokoh paling influential lewat goresan tangannya. gue gak yakin di era-nya kita banyak nemuin cewek kyk doi sih. bener-bener kritis dan aware sama social issues yang ada di sekitarnya. perlawanan yang ditempuh sama Skeeter buat ngerubah kebobrokan yang ada di sekitarnya cukup lewat tulisan, yang ditulis ecara tajam dan akurat. karena langsung dari sumber yang terpecaya. Skeeter juga enggak mau terus-terusan ngikutin kehidupan cewek-cewek sepantarannya yang goal of lifenya cuma nyari suami kaya dan gak ngelakuin apa-apa selain menghaburkan uang suaminya. two thumbs up for Skeeter!!!

3. Kugy 'Karmachameleon' okey, yang terakhir ini gue ngambil contoh dari tokoh lokal. gak fair rasanya kalo bawa-bawa tokoh asing terus >,< buat kalian penikmat buku karya Mbak Dewi Lestari, mungkin gak asing sama tokoh Kugy ini. walaupun berantakan, seing menghayal, dan kekanak-kanakan, dari sudut pandang gue, Kugy punya sesuatu yang bisa banget cewek-cewek teladanin. Kugy punya tekad yang kuat buat ngeraih apa yng dicita-citainnya. Kugy juga selalu menghargai orang-orang yang ada di sekitarnya dan selalu berusaha mengapresiasi mereka. patut banget dicontoh kan?

03/02/2018

Dear Net, gue udah gak tahu lagi gimana harus bersikap. mungkin kemarin adalah pertanda kalau semua seharusnya udah selesai. semuanya seharusnya udah berhenti. seharusnya gak boleh ada hubungan lagi. kenapa seolah-olah gue terus yang selalu merasa kalau dunia gue hampa, padahal sebetulnya banyak banget yang bisa gue kerjain di depan mata. secara harafiah, hampa artinya kosong. perasaan kosong itu seharusnya kosong, bukan sakit. tapi entah kenapa, yang gue rasain saat ini sakit banget. rasanya kayak dibanting dari lantai tertinggi tiba-tiba. mungkin karena gue yang terlalu banyak berharap. gue bukan tipe orang yang suka nyalahin orang. malah, gue selalu nyalahin diri gue sendiri setiap ada sesuatu yang ngerugiin diri gue atau sekitar gue. gue emang center of problems kekosongan yang gue alamin ini seharusnya bisa diobatin sama buku-buku yang gue baca. dan dasar sialan, kali ini si penyebab kekosongan gue jago banget, Net. gue selalu dibikin merasa bersalah, terus dianya ngilang gitu aja. kali ini semua permintaan maaf gue cuma dibales dingin. "Ngga", katanya. katanya dai nggak marah. tapi secuil kata-kata yang dia jadiin jawaban atas pertanyaan gue tadi sore itu justru mengindikasikan kalau dia marah banget sama gue. ya udah, gak pa-pa. it takes time. dan masalah yang lagi gue pikirin bukan cuma berputar di sekitar doi. gue lagi merasakan apa yang mereka sebut mental breakdown. gak lucu ya, anak psikologi ngalamin hal kayak gini. tapi juur, gue sering banget ngalamin mood swings yang berlebihan. gak tau apakah gue bipolar atau semacamnya atau emang hormon perempuan gue gak stabil jadi gue sering bete gitu deh. Eh, Hannibal Lecter aja psikiater tapi bisa jadi kannibal?! ah gue gak mau jadi kayak dia! hehehe gue pengen banget nulis sesuatu yang bisa ngeluapin perasaan gue sama dia. gue merasa, he's actually not worth it. tapi dia selalu muncul dalam pikiran gue kapan aja, seolah-olah ada alarm di otak gue yang nyetel kapan aja waktu dia bisa muncul dan menghantui gue. gue takut banget perasaan kayak gini bakalan muncul setelah sepuluh, dua puluh tahun kedepan. gue gak mau. gue mau berlabuh ke suatu dermaga dimana gue bisa dengan lega menambatkan seluruh isi perasaan gue tanpa ada rasa kecemasan, kekhawatiran gue salah. gue mau mendarat dengan damai dimana gue gak harus takut pesawat gue yang bawa melebihi kecepatan dan akan keluar jalur nabrak sesuatu. gue mau bersama sahabat gue, orang yang mengenali gue dan fine-fine aja sama semua kekurangan yang gue miliki. gak akan mengecewakan gue dan gue gak akan mengecewakan dia. tapi gue kangen dia

27/01/18

Dari milyaran manusia di muka bumi, ada kamu.
Bagi mereka, kamu sama saja.
Bagi aku, kamu berbeda.
Bagi mereka, kamu bukan kamu.
Bagi aku, kamu adalah kamu.

Di balik semua pertanyaan, ada jawaban.
Semua tergantung kamu, ingin lihat yang mana.
Solusi atau masalah? Terang atau gelap.
Sama seperti aku memilih kamu di antara yang lain.

25/01/18

Curhatan Tahun Baru

Dear Net, gue balik lagi
Menengok blog lama gue yg berdebu bgt. Kalo aja blog ini wujudnya rumah, pasti udh banyak "penunggu"nya.
Anyway, udah 2018. Banyak banget yg udah gue laluin. Soal resolusi, gak banyak kok. Yah intinya pengen jadi pribadi yg lebih baik lagi dari kemarin. Pengen lebih 'rapih' mungkin.
Ada satu lagi, mungkin ingin merelakan sesuatu yg mungkin bukan takdir gue.
Net, kayaknya my stream is over. Arus yang gue selalu usahain untuk lawan bahkan udah ga melaju ngelawan gue. Tiba-tiba aja surut. Gak ada lagi arus. Yang ada di sekitar gue hanyalah tanah kering kerontang penuh bebatuan.
Udah beberapa bulan gue lulus dari SMA. Dan selama itu juga gue udah gak ketemu dia.
Tapi Net, sabtu besok gue dateng ke acara SMA gue. Gue gak tahu dia bakal dateng apa enggak. Ya kalo dateng sukur, kalo engga ya gak papa. Kecewa-kecewa dikit karena udah ngebatalin janji mau jalan sama nyokap ke suatu tempat.
Makasih ya Net udah mau jadi tempat sampah gue. Hehehe

OBM (Orientasi Belajar Mahasiswa)

hello young lads! missing me already? well you have me now!

how are you? hope you guys doin fine, writing from here, 05:16 AM and today is the final day of Ramadhan

today i want to write something about OBM that i've experienced in University of Indonesia that held from 5 to 7 june 2017, 08:00 - 16:00 WIB!

it was fun! i made a lot of friends and acquaintanced with kids from different majors! let me start from day 1

5 june, 2017

i woke up at 5:00 AM. i didn't fast neither took a shubuh prayer bcs i had my period😩 i had cramps, a really bad cramps but i didn't pay attention cuz i was too excited!! i took a bath and had my breakfast. my dad picked me up to depok. we arrived at Balairung at 06:15. it was really crowded! i texted my friend imam asking him where was he and he said he's almost there. so i waited a few minutes. i met Wanti( my classmate from 9th grade), she went into different high school, she got into Faculty of Administration, and took Public Administration as her major i guess

they played UI's hymne really loud. imam took so long so i walked alone to my group, which is G-2. a lot of people made lines and i saw people from different major. i made a talk with a boy who stood infront of me. i forgot his name but he wore glasses and in Metalurgi major.

and there was Antasena! that med stud whose Dean hates!😂 he wore big white glasses and looked so lonely...

we have to wait more than an hour in lines and i had a very bad cramps!!! i almost vomitted! and after waiting that long we finnaly walked into Faculty of Economy and Bussiness. yes, we walked that far! and most of us were fasting...

i went to class 202. it didn't took me too long to made friends, i sat among Allya(Accounting, from Al-Azhar), Adinda(Management, also from Al-Azhar) and Citra(Pharmacy, from SMAN 34)

in our first task, we had to work in group

it was really awkward bcs we never met before. my group consisted those girls plus Allisa(Statistics, from SMAN 39) , Akhsanu (Psychology, i forgot her highschool tho! sorry) and Rizky(Chem, from SMAN 97) we just met but we already had gossips about a thing!😂 and rizky was the one who really excited about it.....

after we finished our task we had to present it infront of class, we made a deal that Rizky the one who should did it bcs he is the only boy in group.. 

the first day OBM finished in 16:00! i got home by train and really exhausted!

6th June 2017

the second day, we moved to FISIP! class 108! in the second day we learned to write properly as a lecture student does! i thought i would hate it but it turned out really fun! in second day we also had to work in group and i met a really funny guy, his name is Umar😂 idk but im pretty sure he was his school clown since everything he said turned into jokes:/  

7th June 2017

last day of OBM, the group changed and i had new classmates! but there were some people from my old group like Umar, Fatih, and Karina. we studied in LAB 2A. i sat with 2 guys from faculty of technic i forgot their names lol. all i could remember one from metalurgi and one from electro. they looked... well, smart?

in this last day i learned a lotttt of how to use all online facilities in this Uni. we made a group discussions in SIAK.NG, talked about GPA, and had games! fun!

but it was only untill 12:30, we move to Faculty of Public Health. i already very tired, it was a very hot day and i didn't fast(still on my period) but still i couldnt drink or eat infront of those who fasted right?

the last hour we played Kahoot lol like i used to do in LIA. after that we got home in 15:00, i took a train as usual and stopped in Kalibata station, used Grab-bike and lived my life again!

that's all my 3 days experiences of OBM! what about yours?

p.s: we took some photos lol

  

Get to know me!

Hey fellas! What a nighty night!
Writing from here, Bekasi, at 22:46 and i cant sleep:(
i probably should but i have an extra energy to write so...
I really want to talk about my thoughts, that keep me awake for every night. Sometimes my thoughts are simple. It can be about me, or about someone else!
So basically i want to write my thoughts about myself that would describe bout myself in general😄
1. I love to read. I live to read. In my case, it's not always about fiction books. I also enjoy scifi, history,or probably just... a biography.. i learn a lot from book. Electronic book is allowed tho, but i prefer the real book. Because i enjoy the smell of paper, it's a drug for me😂
2. I don't easily get along with people. Though i can befriend with anyone.. for me, doesn't matter how long you know that person, if he/she suits me,i'll stay befriend with them. It's not that just because i know them for a long time they will automatically become my bff. No, just no
3. I'm an observant. I love to observe people. Getting know someones personalities is one of my favorite things. That's why i got into psychology:)
4. I hate when people stop talking like "hey i want to tell you something" or "hey can we talk?" Then just end up with "nevermind" UGH
5. I have crush on someones intelligency, not from their personalities neither from their looks. I usually have crush on plain-looked-boy but a straight A's. Ha.
6. I'm a judgemental person but i keep it to myself
7. I hate when people walk out and leave the door open
8. Coffee over tea
9. Drawing and reading over sporty activities
10. My favorite colors are red and black. Thats personally explain my anti-mingle-traits:)

Hi Everyone!

Finnaly i have time to update this old-dusty-blog! Well hello everyone! How's life? My life has gotten much better now! Now i'm having a full time holiday after the national exam
First, i want to say i have so many mixed feelings about graduating school😯 i am that type of person who always want another journey but kinda easily attached to the past..
Gotta miss my friend Qibonk! Well it's not her real name😂 her real name is Qintan but it's easier to call her Qibonk. she's the one in pink dress>_< We met at the very first day of school. She was sitting alone and i recognized the name of her former school from her tie! I know her old school so i started the cliché convos such as "kamu dulu anak lapsat ya... salam kenal ya!"😂
And things got better after i found out she lives not very far from my house. Since then, we usually go home together taking angkot CH( a public transportation)😂 we had so many moments in that transportation.
We also had so many ups and downs. We had a fight and im the one who started it all:( i felt so many regrets and i hate my mental disorders who i diagnosed as bipolar who caused it all
Well we finnaly made up and be friends again! And Qibonk started to bring motorcycle and i started to hitch her:( a.k.a nebeng hahaha..
Shortly, i have so many memories in highschool with her, sure i'm gonna miss her more when i start my first day as a freshmen without her in uni.. we're taking a different roads now.. she's going to study economic and im going to study psychology:( we're also going to different uni. I go to University of Indonesia which is located in Depok, and she goes to Padjajaran University which is located in Bandung, but she told me that her class is located in Sumedang😂
Talking about uni, both me and Qibonk are accepted through SNMPTN.. So we dont have to take another test to go to PTN
The announcement was announced in April, 26th... yep, 5 days after my birthday... my blood rushed through my veins and my chest pounded so hard! I could never forget that moment.. the server went down in 14.00.. and i didn't open it after 14.10. I received news from Qibonk and she said she was accepted! I cried in joy because of her!💞💞 but a lil bit got more anxious because i myself hadn't opened mine yet😂 to reduced the feelings, i watched Harry Potter and got distracted.. but still Q and me after we finished our French practical exam... I also received news from Dean, he didn't make it through SNMPTN. That's scared the hell out me because i know he is smart as hell and im nothing compared to him.. and then my mom told me to just open it and be patient whatever the result is... so i started to open it through SNMPTN website but the website crashed-_- so i started to open it from UI website and the result is.....
I GOT ACCEPTED! ALHAMDULILLAH... i saw a green square right after my name and i jumped around my mom hugged me and we both cried... we didn't stop to say our gratitude to Allah
Sad, joy,mixed together because i know some people who i love,befriend,and hang out with didn't get into SNMPTN. I cheered them up, some of them thanked me, some of them just ignored me😦 but im fully understand.. they were just in crisis and it's my job as a friend to lift them up:)
Okeyy i think that's all, just to fulfill this post, i want to post some pictures of my memories in highschool!:)

this is Destiani, she's Qibonk's chairmate ^_^ i usually call her duckstiani hehehe b'cause... HAHAHAHAHA GIRLS FROM MY CLASS! xx my 16th birthday a year agooooo... thankyou guys! what a memorable memory:):)