Get to know me!

Hey fellas! What a nighty night!
Writing from here, Bekasi, at 22:46 and i cant sleep:(
i probably should but i have an extra energy to write so...
I really want to talk about my thoughts, that keep me awake for every night. Sometimes my thoughts are simple. It can be about me, or about someone else!
So basically i want to write my thoughts about myself that would describe bout myself in general😄
1. I love to read. I live to read. In my case, it's not always about fiction books. I also enjoy scifi, history,or probably just... a biography.. i learn a lot from book. Electronic book is allowed tho, but i prefer the real book. Because i enjoy the smell of paper, it's a drug for me😂
2. I don't easily get along with people. Though i can befriend with anyone.. for me, doesn't matter how long you know that person, if he/she suits me,i'll stay befriend with them. It's not that just because i know them for a long time they will automatically become my bff. No, just no
3. I'm an observant. I love to observe people. Getting know someones personalities is one of my favorite things. That's why i got into psychology:)
4. I hate when people stop talking like "hey i want to tell you something" or "hey can we talk?" Then just end up with "nevermind" UGH
5. I have crush on someones intelligency, not from their personalities neither from their looks. I usually have crush on plain-looked-boy but a straight A's. Ha.
6. I'm a judgemental person but i keep it to myself
7. I hate when people walk out and leave the door open
8. Coffee over tea
9. Drawing and reading over sporty activities
10. My favorite colors are red and black. Thats personally explain my anti-mingle-traits:)

Hi Everyone!

Finnaly i have time to update this old-dusty-blog! Well hello everyone! How's life? My life has gotten much better now! Now i'm having a full time holiday after the national exam
First, i want to say i have so many mixed feelings about graduating school😯 i am that type of person who always want another journey but kinda easily attached to the past..
Gotta miss my friend Qibonk! Well it's not her real name😂 her real name is Qintan but it's easier to call her Qibonk. she's the one in pink dress>_< We met at the very first day of school. She was sitting alone and i recognized the name of her former school from her tie! I know her old school so i started the cliché convos such as "kamu dulu anak lapsat ya... salam kenal ya!"😂
And things got better after i found out she lives not very far from my house. Since then, we usually go home together taking angkot CH( a public transportation)😂 we had so many moments in that transportation.
We also had so many ups and downs. We had a fight and im the one who started it all:( i felt so many regrets and i hate my mental disorders who i diagnosed as bipolar who caused it all
Well we finnaly made up and be friends again! And Qibonk started to bring motorcycle and i started to hitch her:( a.k.a nebeng hahaha..
Shortly, i have so many memories in highschool with her, sure i'm gonna miss her more when i start my first day as a freshmen without her in uni.. we're taking a different roads now.. she's going to study economic and im going to study psychology:( we're also going to different uni. I go to University of Indonesia which is located in Depok, and she goes to Padjajaran University which is located in Bandung, but she told me that her class is located in Sumedang😂
Talking about uni, both me and Qibonk are accepted through SNMPTN.. So we dont have to take another test to go to PTN
The announcement was announced in April, 26th... yep, 5 days after my birthday... my blood rushed through my veins and my chest pounded so hard! I could never forget that moment.. the server went down in 14.00.. and i didn't open it after 14.10. I received news from Qibonk and she said she was accepted! I cried in joy because of her!💞💞 but a lil bit got more anxious because i myself hadn't opened mine yet😂 to reduced the feelings, i watched Harry Potter and got distracted.. but still Q and me after we finished our French practical exam... I also received news from Dean, he didn't make it through SNMPTN. That's scared the hell out me because i know he is smart as hell and im nothing compared to him.. and then my mom told me to just open it and be patient whatever the result is... so i started to open it through SNMPTN website but the website crashed-_- so i started to open it from UI website and the result is.....
I GOT ACCEPTED! ALHAMDULILLAH... i saw a green square right after my name and i jumped around my mom hugged me and we both cried... we didn't stop to say our gratitude to Allah
Sad, joy,mixed together because i know some people who i love,befriend,and hang out with didn't get into SNMPTN. I cheered them up, some of them thanked me, some of them just ignored me😦 but im fully understand.. they were just in crisis and it's my job as a friend to lift them up:)
Okeyy i think that's all, just to fulfill this post, i want to post some pictures of my memories in highschool!:)

this is Destiani, she's Qibonk's chairmate ^_^ i usually call her duckstiani hehehe b'cause... HAHAHAHAHA GIRLS FROM MY CLASS! xx my 16th birthday a year agooooo... thankyou guys! what a memorable memory:):)

TWO MOVIES IN A ROW!!!

"People always say life is full of choices, but noone ever mentions fear" - Anastasia, 1997.

Isn't that all true? By the way, how are you guys?? Hope you are all fine and ready for the next article i'm going to write!!!!

This holiday... huff been an unproductive animal i have! After visiting some of my colleagues, i have nothing to do(zzzzzz dont tell me to study!!)
BUTTTTTT i spend it by watching some movies i've intended to lol

First,i watched Brooklyn. Yes, that Saoirse Ronan - Brooklyn. Don't mock me because i just watched it now! I had no time that day!
Here's some word about it:
" An Irish immigrant lands in 1950s Brooklyn, where she quickly falls into a romance with a local. When her past catches up with her, however, she must choose between two countries and the lives that exist within." - IMDB

yes, it was about an Irish immigrant; Eilis. Who gave up her life in her hometown Ireland by moved to Brooklyn. A place she had never been to, a place she had no one to befriend with.
At first, Eilis couldn't get her life together there. She had a homesick. Life was hard there. Before a young Italian fella came along, took her attention.

Do you see what i mean here?.. Isn't that just amazing how one's presence could change the whole persepective in your entire life? Probably, it doesn't happen to anyone. But it happens to me.

nobody, i repeat: Nobody ships them harder than i will ever be

Actually i'm not Irish So why are you here? I like Irish girl This movie reminds me of some cases that happened to everyone who must have lived their life away from their motherland. Being away from your family, or friends is not that easy. Same cases happened to Eilis. Her mom wasn't very excited knowing her decision to be far from home, just for work when actually Eilis already got a job in her hometown.

I would rate this movie 7/10. Not bad, not a masterpiece. But Saoirse herself acts professionaly. Prob because she's an Irish herself. I dont see any flaws in her acting. I love her since The Lovely Bones

But in the end, after a very romantic-cute relationship with Tony, Eilis had to face the reality. She lost her sister and had to leave her just-married husband Tony.

I don't want to give you any longer spoiler. Go watch the entire movie and give me a feedback!😁

Next, I watched Anastasia (1997)
Yep, it's a animation. So?
I think the movie is very interesting because it's about The Romanov's missing princess, Anastasia.
And there goes the villain, Rasputin. Historically inaccurate? Come on! It's just a kids movie. What do you expect? Bloody sunday infront of St. Petersburg? The Bolsheviks assasinated The Romanovs?
Actually, i already watched this movie as a kid. But that time i had lack information bout The Romanov and as a stupid kid, what matters to me was the happy ending. How happy i was that day because the movie ended with Anastasia reunited with her royal family but she CHOSE the kitchen boy, Dimitri
(Gosh, i love Dimitri)
I would give this movie 8/10. The music itself is very mesmerizing. The character depicted nicely. And what else? Note: it's not disney thay's why the plotline isn't cheesy at all!

Okay fellas, time to do something more important than giving any review bout movies that i particularly watched. Don't forget to give a feedback! 😁😁
DAS SVIDANIYA!

Real Talk: Does Ambition Kill?

Hey guys, whats up? I feel like it has been forever since the last time i posted in this site when it's actually only a few hours since the last post Just like what i promised to you, my loyal readers, the new post about real talk has finnaly arrived! Yippie! What's that? am·bi·tion /amˈbiSH(ə)n/ noun noun: ambition; plural noun: ambitions a strong desire to do or to achieve something, typically requiring determination and hard work. does it good to have any ambition within ourselves? the answer is: yes without ambition, life means nothing. without ambition.... well you probably had ended your life by suicide. kkkkkkkk not exaggerating, but that's true! but does it kill? CINDY YOU SAID IT'S GOOD TO HAVE AMBITION WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT KILLS YOU???? well, first it's deteriorating your health if you can achieve things you aspire if but actually it depends on the person. i failed in many things and see, my ambition doesn't kill me. it actually makes me pursuing myself to be better and better second, it kicks your good side if your good sides blocking your way to your goals. third, you grow devils inside you. an overrated ambition makes yourself dull and thirsty. you crave for intention, spotlight, it knocks yourself when you fail at everything you dreamed on etc ughhhhhhhh so what should have i done? well, till lnow i haven't found any good recipe to control bad ambition in myself. just pray to God and he will lead you to the good path and prevent you from being overwhelmed by your own ambition! keep smiling! :)

What Makes Someone Evil

hello guys, what have you been doing since the last time you read my post? hehehe i hope you're all find and been doing okay so today, you can say i'm restating my feeds again.and probably get rid the dust by writing an essay about my thoughts. this idea about "What Makes Someone Evil" came out while i was washing the dishes. seriously how come? okay, so have you ever thought that what are the things that make someone evil and changed their whole personality? we were born as a good person. God created us as a pure-soul baby with an innocent thoughts. well, no matter if you dont believe in God or you're prude, we are all agree that baby never had any intention to kill or genocide:') SO WHAT ABOUT ADOLF FUHRER HITLER OR JOSEPH Vissarionovic STALIN???? WHY DID GOD CREATED THEM?

the answer is easy. God never created them. no, that wasn't satan who made them. they made themselves. we all have a good and bad things in we, right? the same thing goes to them also. they all have a good and bad thing in them. ambition they had killed their good sides. AND THAT'S WHAT HAPPEN okay, i'll talk later about ambition and how does it kill your good personality. stay on tune cuz i have to go! see ya!

Weird obssesion as a child

Hello, uhm hi
This is me, the owner of this blog, sup?
today im gonna do a childhood throwback so yea...
When i was a kid, i used to spend my entire spare time, drawing, learning musical instruments, and reading.
i had a weird obssesion in dinosaurus as a child. I hung posters, wore bedsheets, t-shirs, played a game, even had an underwear with dino on it. It was cute back then, that's why one of my favorite movie is jurassic park^_^
i also had a dream to go to narnia when i was a kid:p i always thought there's an underworld there, even a neverland does exist!!
weird huh
I always imagined there once fairies live in trees, inside flowers or bushes, and a mermaids live in a deep down ocean...
I miss my childhood:( i wish there's a time machine that could bring me there...

NOVEMBER BOOK RECOMMENDATION!! (with playlist tho)

1. The Davinci Code by Dan Brown

if you havent read this book yet, you should do yourself a favor: go to bookstore, find this one, and buy it!!
seriously not trying to exagerrating but well if you like any detective-thrilling-adventure and most of all, you're into conspiracy theory ( just like me hehe) Brown will tell you so many things which are hidden in every page you read. not to mention that you'll get a heart attack in the end of book k bye

2. The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini

Seriously, i warn you: before read this book, you have to prepare a box of tissue of something because this BOOK DEFINITELY RUIN YOUR DAY CAUSE DAMN
you'll catch feelings and i can say this book is the best book about friendship, loyalty& war that ever exist
Well not going to give you spoiler just straight to nearest bookstore, find it, and BUY IT!!!

3. Secret Series by Pbosch

Gosh, have you read this? If you havent, i tell you this one: buy these and..........
There's no such a word to describe these series.. Duh, i mean i like an adventure series but man this book is soooo amazing!! this book ask you and while you read every page it takes you to different adventure and well, i guess you have to be as smart as i am to decode every mysteri lol

4. Pretty Little Liars series

Crawl in your bed with your headphones on and a cup of hot chocolate while it's raining outside and noone's there to disturb you is the best way ever to enjoy these series,
yet if you already watched the tv series i guess i dont have to spoil you with sinopsis!

5. My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult

Have you watch the movie yet? I guess 99,9% people in this world alread did, so, let me tell you:
THIS BOOK FAR MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN THE MOVIE EVER
(didnt mean to say the movie was bad)

Playlist>
1. 3 Doors down - here without you
2. Dido- Thank You
3. Panic! At The Disco - This is gospel
4. A Rocket To The Moon- Ever enough
5. All Time Low -Therapy
6. Dido - White Flag
7. Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

Enjoy!!^0^